Im still here

OK so I haven't told you yet that I have given up soda. I started this last Monday and really I hadn't missed it until the weekend. I really haven't even thought about it until then, and I think that's because the kids where home and they are trying to drink it so its out of the house. But I have held strong and not had any. I keep crossing my fingers that it stays this easy. I was tempted but I did not partake and it was over. Will it always be that easy?

I quit Curves this week also so that I could start going to Conway Fitness Center. I hope it was a good choice. I tried out the Zumba class this last week and loved it. They have a daycare for Paige that she can be in for 2 hours in the morning and 2 hours at night. The kids an go swimming or play basketball. So I am excited! We didn't sign Kevin up yet because baseball is getting ready to start and there will be no time for him to go. So for now it is me and the kids.

I had a minor set back last night. I am starting to freak out. I cant believe that we are 2 weeks away. Don't get me wrong I am so excited and I know this is what I need to do. But the thought of giving the food up I love the most scares me. I know that some are saying what ever its only food, but I challenge you to give up what you have loved for so long. I understand that I will learn to love other things and this will be fare better then the treats I am giving up, but at this point I have nothing to show for it but the fact I cant eat it. Give me a couple of months and I will be happy.

Until next time! This week I am starting my 2 week diet so there should be alot to complain about!!!

Set Back

So I guess its not really a set back, but I tried a strawberry shake that they gave me to taste and it was the grossest thing that I have ever tried. I have been going the slim fast shakes and they haven't been bad but this was terrible. All I could think was if I have to have this for 2 weeks I cant do it. I wasn't going to make it.

So today I tried one of the vanilla shakes. That is the flavor that I will be doing for the 2 weeks. I opened the container and smelled it and it smelled like cake mix. It was a great smell. Then I tasted it and it tasted just like cake mix. So I decided I might be able to make it. After chugging it I was really wanting to find the toilet, but I didn't I kept it down. Its not that it was bad but have you ever had to drink and entire cup of cake mix, it gets old fast.

As for now I think that I can make the 2 weeks, I also think that after the surgery I will be going back to slim fast. But I can handle anything for 2 weeks. (at least I am praying I can!)

I have a few other things to share, but I will have to do that on another day. As for now I am really doing well I think!

Protein Shakes...

So I had to give it a few days before I wrote about the Protein Shakes, I didn't know how I would do on them. Well I have decided that they aren't that bad at this point.

The first day was not good, I drank the shake and it tasted like a really thick chocolate milk. So really not to bad. Then the rest of the day I had water, what a mistake. So that ment all the rest of the day I had the taste of that shake in my mouth. By the end of the night I needed to puck. I couldn't imagine the thought of having to drink another shake in the morning. So I finally had something with flavor to drink, and as soon as I did that the thought of the shake in the morning wasn't bad anymore.

Don't get me wrong they aren't my first choice of something good to have, but really I might be able to handle this.

Monday is the day that I start the no drinking soda. This one scares me for the main fact that I LOVE my Dr Pepper. So until my next adventure...

No drinking!

So the last 2 days I have taken drinking out during meal times. Yes it sounds like a little thing but its not. They said after surgery I cant drink until 30-45 minutes after I eat. So as the drink sits there on the table for the kids it calls to me. It says "Lindsee come and get me, you know you want to have a little sip, what will it hurt just try me everyone is doing it!" Yes at this Point I have been the bigger person and not drank during meal times. Yes it is also getting easier, but my problem comes when I walk away from the table and think OK I'm good, then I forget to drink for hours and if I do this much longer then I will start getting dehydrated. I never realized how much of my drinking is done at the dinner table.
Kevin has been a big help, he is doing everything with me. So I called him at work to see how his lunch went with no drinking. Here is the conversation that we had.
Lindsee:So how was your lunch with no drink?
Kevin:......... (that means he was silent)
Lindsee:Well that tells me everything, you had a drink.
Kevin:Well see I forgot until I had a drink.
Lindsee:Thanks for the support.
As wonderful of a husband that I have, and as much as he is helping me. I do have to stand alone. But I will be VICTORIOUS!
Tomorrow I will be starting a protein shake in the mornings, wish me luck because I am NOT excited about it!

It Starts today...

What can I say, but my new life starts today...
I have decided to journal my adventure in having a lap-band. Its a device that is put around your stomach so you don't eat as much and you can start losing weight. I decided that I need to blog it so I can let out all my fears, excitement, and just to get me through some of the ruff spots ahead of me.
I am overweight and have decided to take me life back. On February 17, 2010 I will go to Hope Arkansas to have surgery. From that point on everyday will be something new for my family an me to share.
Before the surgery even takes place I have to start preparing for it. On February 2 I will start a 2 week liquid diet. In the morning and at lunch I will drink protein shakes, then a lite dinner. Will I make it through those 2 weeks that has yet to be decided. But there no time like the present time to find out. So for the next 2 weeks I will be starting to implement a few changes to my life so that its not such a shock for me.
They told me that I can no longer drink at meal time. I will have to wait until 30-45 minutes after I eat to drink. I will be drinking one shake every morning to get me ready to try and drink the second one. I am going to take soda pop out of my life now, and try and not eat as many sweets. Wish me luck because YES I will need it.
I will try and keep you posted to let you know how things are going and also share my story with how I got to this point. SO if you have time and wish come and take a journey with me...