Wednesday, March 31, 2010

6 weeks after

Here I am at 6 weeks and 26 pounds gone! Things are going good, some days are better then others. I think I was thinking all the weight would be gone over night. Well guess what its still here. I am working out and tiring to eat better. Please wish me luck!

Once again more photos to follow!!!

Before Surgery

Alright here is my before pictures... I hope that next year you are all surprised!!!

More picture to follow!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

1 week down

so this has been a terrible week. I never thought in a million years that it would be this hard. I understand that in 6 months I will be loving life, but for today its the first day with no tears!

Surgery went well I got home and it all went down hill. I'm not sure what is going on if I didn't get enough saline in the lap band but I still get hungry quite often. Then there is the fact that I don't want soup I want MC Donald's. I want a big mac and cant have one. I was told not to worry that I'm like a drugy that is in detox and that it will get better with time.

I am scared to think that they want me on a liquid diet for so long. I am needing real food. Everything is going right through me. So I finally decided to eat the veggies in the soup and eat the beans in the bean with bacon soup. Its a little easy now that I am a week into it, but still I don't know how much more I can handle.

I keep telling myself that I go into the doctor on March 2 and then he will make everything better. I'm just a little discouraged right now.

I have also been getting alot of advise that I'm not sure I should be taking. All along I have said I want to do this to get healthy, and that I don't care on how much I lose. Well one of the lady's that I have been talking to is in it to lose it, and all of it. SO she has my mind on that I will never be able to eat the food that I love and that I can only eat lean cuisines. I didn't know that is what I signed up for. I don't want to have a life without food, I want a life with healthier food and a little fun food every so often.

So needless to say I cant talk to her anymore. I need to be happy again and talking with her I get sad. But like I said today there were no tears and that is a first. So I do know that there is a light at then end of the tunnel I cant see it yet but I will eventually!!!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

The Day Before

Today is the day before my surgery. Am I scared you ask....YES! I have all the confidence in the world that I will be fine and that nothing will go wrong. But yes I am still going to be put under and have a recovery period. Then from this point on my life will be changed.

I made it this last 2 weeks, and it was a hard 2 weeks. But I am very proud of myself and what I have done thus far. I will post in a couple of days and let you know how things are going, but for now see you later!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

A few days to go

Well here I sit thinking about what I am about to do. Yes I am very excited about my choice but I am also scared to death. I want to lose the weight more then anything but do I really understand what I am about to do?

We are driving into Hope on Tuesday night and we have to be at the hospital by 7:00 am. Kevin, Paige and I will be going. The boys are going to stay at the Charlton's house.

Kevin talked to the doctors office Thursday and Erin the nurse said that she was going to try and be down there that day. She said that she would make sure that all was OK. I called her later that day to see if there was something that she could give me for my nerves, she said no but that as soon as I got there they would give me something in my IV.

The 2 week diet is going alright. Yes there are days that are harder then other days but really I am getting use to things. Don't get me wrong I am counting the days until I am done with it but for now I think I can handle a few more days!

Other then that all is going good. (I think!) I'm not craving soda, but I am craving chips. So I guess you win some and you lose some!

Saturday, February 6, 2010


Well we are in the weekend, and its going alright. I don't know that I am doing all that I should be doing but I am trying!

I have a shake for breakfast and for lunch then I have had jerky for a snack with crackers. Then for dinner I eat what everyone else is eating just less then usual. The bad thing is I am always hungry. When I eat at night it makes me sick. I know that after I have the surgery it will get better for the fact that I wont be hungry anymore.

I went and worked out everyday this week. I have loved it, yes it kicked my butt, but I survived! I am glad its the weekend.

I found a yogurt that had 12g of protein in it, which is very good, but the yogurt was terrible. I decided that even though the others had 5-7g I would take it. I have been stressed about everything and I don't want to stress about that!

You might find me crazy but I start stressing over the little things. Am I ever going to eat again, am I ever going to have the wheel power to do everything. Only time will tell.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

2 Weeks and counting!!!

OK so today I started my 2 week diet. For some reason it has been a hard day for me. For the last few weeks I haven't had any real cravings, then today when I cant eat it I want it all. The thought of a chip sounds so good. The thought of something sweet is almost more then I can handle. I'm staying strong and will TRY not to faultier but I am human...

I started working out at the fitness center full time this week. I really am loving it but my body hurts from every angle. I want to cry most of the time but I will get it a little time, then as soon as I am getting the hang of it, it will be time to take 8 weeks off. Oh well what can a girl do?!?!

The last few days I have had alot of tears, I'm really not sure why but I can guess. My nerves are getting the worst of me. I want to be strong and I know I will be victorious but I'm scared to death.